Wednesday, August 15, 2012

The Fault in our Stars

     So I am a fairly avid reader, and always on the hunt for a new book. Recently Goodreads brought this gem to my attention:


Diagnosed with Stage IV thyroid cancer at 13, Hazel was prepared to die until, at 14, a medical miracle shrunk the tumors in her lungs... for now.

Two years post-miracle, sixteen-year-old Hazel is post-everything else, too; post-high school, post-friends and post-normalcy. And even though she could live for a long time (whatever that means), Hazel lives tethered to an oxygen tank, the tumors tenuously kept at bay with a constant chemical assault.

Enter Augustus Waters. A match made at cancer kid support group, Augustus is gorgeous, in remission, and shockingly to her, interested in Hazel. Being with Augustus is both an unexpected destination and a long-needed journey, pushing Hazel to re-examine how sickness and health, life and death, will define her and the legacy that everyone leaves behind.


     I've only had a chance to read a sample, but I loved it and only hear good things about it. (Note: I also hear its a pretty big tear jerker) With alot of things coming up in my life I don't have time at the moment.  I do plan to start in September though. I want to write a little bit about it after , minus spoilers, but what I really want to do is discuss it with other people.  Especially since the book seems to touch on how people evaluate things differently when one's health starts to fail.

     Is anyone interested in chit-chatting about this book  sometime in September? 


Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Video Blog and a Friendly Disposition

     If I'm going to stick with this blog as long as I plan to, I need to keep things fresh. So today you may notice I tried something different... a video blog! I'm not the best writer out there because after four years in college I type far to formally.. or like i'm texting. A middle ground is something which I have to work on for these posts.  This was my first VB ever and it shows, but it was fun to make all the same :) If I do this in the future at least I will have learned some things along the way.

    The point I started to make in this blog is my mood and disposition is not optimal anymore. I get very easily stressed out, which leads to frustration and than I lash out at people who don't deserve it. On good days where my health is great, I go around walking on sunshine and I'd like to think I'm a pleasant person to be around.  

     On bad days thou? Maddy #2 , my evil twin, comes out and suddenly the quiet, easy going person people know me as melts away and whats left is a resentful, bitter, angry bitch person.  Little things set me off. The situation progresses quickly and I don't like the person I am anymore. At that point, I can identify that my anger is unjustified. Apologies are given out and I stew for a few more minutes as I get my calm back in check. All this misplaced aggression, stemming from my own fears over my health, are quickly snuffed out, but I don't like that it ever started.

     My solution? Exercising on the 'feel good' days and working on my art and writing on the lower days. Keeps my mind from working situations over and over, and gives my body a good reason to be tired for once! Today is one of those good days, and i've already made the most of it with some biking and finishing up a good book.



P.S. if you actually watched all 3 minutes of my ramblings in the VB, your a champ!